Random Ramblings.... (Perhaps I've spent to much time at the Mental Hospital)

I don't get people.... seriously. I think the more time I spend in my clinicals, especially mental health... the more I am fascinated and appalled by people. I have spent time over the last few weeks with people who have killed family members, slashed people, and done a number of other things that are depressing, scary, and just plain wrong. But... these people are sick. Truly sick. The strange thing is... they were healthy and happy people. Schizophrenia is a scary disease.... it makes you violent and paranoid, and you can have no symptoms until you have your initial break.

Someone once said that we are all simply one traumatic event from institutionalization. Which begs the question.... why are we attempting to put so many people there??!!! What I mean is simply this.... it would seem in a world where we are all just one little break away from complete psychosis, we would tread a bit more carefully around each other. Each individual is made up of completely fragile and unpredictable feelings. No one knows what the other person is going through, or what demons they're fighting...

Our mind is a complex and very fragile piece of machinery. It's subject to damage by everything from blunt force, to blunt words. When someone is verbally abusive to a person you don't know how that's going to affect the subject of the abuse. It could roll like water off a ducks back, or it could be worse than a gun shot to the heart. It's scary that one person can wield such power.

What is more scary is that some people do it intentionally. Some people thrive on inflicting pain and mental agony on another. Whether it's a play for control, a loss of control, or simply asinine behavior, it's damaging.... and it can take someone who had the potential to be something great and turn them into a self loathing mentally discombobulated shell of a person. And why someone would do that is completely beyond me. It's something I'll never understand no matter how much time or how much studying I do... I will never get it. I'll never understand what makes one person susceptible to verbal abuse and another be able to rise above it. More importantly I'll never understand why... because it's so completely unnecessary.