My Hate List

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1. I hate that someone felt the need to smash in my mailbox with a baseball bat.

2. I hate that the very sight of someone, not even the exchanging of words, can send me into a 4 day depression that I literally have to smack out of myself. More importantly I hate that I allow someone to have that much power over me.

3. I hate that I have finals this week.

4. I hate that it actually took 70 + dollars to fill up my car.

5. I hate that there are times when my heart literally aches for people that are nowhere to be found.

6. I hate that my x likes to point out, every chance he gets, how much happier he is now that he is rid of me. Go figure. It's not that I want him back, it's just that it smarts a little and he knows it. And... it would be nice to be missed, is that so wrong?

7. I hate that Eric is at Cedar Point this very minute and I'm not!!!!!!!

8. I hate that we never talk.

9. I hate that Eric will call me the minute he gets off the Dragster, just to rub it in!!!!!

10. I hate that I constantly wrestle with issues in my life, that I doubt I will ever find a satisfactory answer too, and that will bug me till the day I die, and possibly thereafter for that matter. (was that a run-on or what?? lol)

11. I hate that I have all this stuff rattling around in my head and nowhere or no one to bounce it off of.

12. I hate that my Jaime lives 5hrs away.

13. I hate that I have friends and family who have issues that I am dying to fix, but there is no way I can. I hate that I can't make them feel safe, happy, or better when that's all I want to do.

14. I hate that sometimes I say "It will be ok" when in all reality I know it never will be.

15. I hate that there are days I feel like one of the biggest hypocrites around.

16. I hate that I just can't find someone to pay me for getting up in the morning.

17. I hate John Cusack. Because he's cute, and he's not outside my window with the boom box.