**Sigh**

I am off to work tomorrow. (Or today, depending on when you're reading this) I begin orientation tomorrow at 9am, then I actually begin working on Wednesday at 8am. I'm a bag of mixed emotions.... I'm happy, cuz I need the job, I'm sad because this is the first time since my sons birth that I'll be working the week of Christmas. I always took my week vacation on that week to do Christmas stuff with him, and we'll still do Christmas stuff... it's just... different. However, I'm super excited to be getting a paycheck, and as weird as it sounds, walking the halls of the hospital during my sign in day, it felt very much like I had returned home. I kept running into people I used to work with and it was nice to be missed, and catch up with everyone. I'm sure within two weeks I'll be complaining about the job, but for now... it's all good. lol. I keep coming back to the same thought though when I think about going in tomorrow...

Why can't I find anyone to just pay me for being me? (ie... no work, all paycheck)

If you find a way for me to do that, let me know!